... / ANONYMOUS

AN ANGEL HAS LEFT US TODAY
IT IS UP IN HEAVEN WITH GOD THAT SHE SHALL STAY.
HOW QUICKLY HE CAME TO GET HER, WE HAD NO TIME TO PREPARE,
FOR THE HURT AND THE LOSS THAT WE NOW MUST ALL BEAR.

HOW WE WILL WE MISS HER EVER-PRESENT SMILE.
HOW WE WILL MISS HER INDIVIDUAL SENSE OF STYLE.
SHE WAS A PRECIOUS GIFT, GIVEN TO US FOR ONLY A LITTLE WHILE.

THE PLAN FOR HER LIFE WAS WRITTEN BEFORE SHE WAS BORN.
NOW FOLLOWING HIS PLAN FOR HER IS WHERE WE ARE TORN.
WE MUST BELIEVE THAT SHE IS NOT GONE, BUT JUST AWAY.
WE KNOW WE WILL SEE HER AGAIN, BUT FOR NOW WE MUST STAY.

SHE WAS HERE TO TEACH US LESSONS NOT LEARNED IN A BOOK.
IT IS IN OUR HEARTS FOR THE ANSWERS WE MUST LOOK.
WE MUST CHERISH EACH OTHER WHILE WE CAN,
FOR IT IS NOT KNOWN TO US HIS DIVINE PLAN.

HOW PRECIOUS A HUG, A GIGGLE AND A KISS,
THESE ARE THE THINGS WE WILL MOST MISS.
AS OUR HEARTS ACHE FOR HER, WE MUST KNOW SHE IS NOT FAR.
WE'LL SEE HER IN THE DARKNIGHT SKY, AS THE BRIGHTEST STAR.

WE WILL FEEL HER TOUCH IN THE RAIN FROM THE SKY
THAT WASHES AWAY THE TEARS THAT WE CRY.
WE WILL FEEL HER EMBRACE IN THE WARM SUMMER SUN.
WE WILL HEAR HER LAUGHTER WHEN, ONCE AGAIN, WE HAVE FUN.

SHE WILL ALWAYS BE WITH US, IF WE ARE QUIET ENOUGH TO HEAR,
THE SWISH OF AN ANGEL’S WINGS FLAPPING IN OUR EARS!

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I AM HONORED  / J. (family friend )
I write this note better than 6 months after you left this earth.  I sit in awe as I listen to your peers speak of school, social activities and all else acquainted with being 17. Your name is brought up in conversation by them when they speak of past times. What is so unusual is that they speak as if you are still with them. I truly believe your spirit lives in each one of them and that you guide them each day.I pay tribute today to Becky. She must have been one heck of a FRIEND!! I am honored to say my daughter was her friend. Diane, Katy, Mark, Mr and Mrs Ellis and Mary Ann: You are first in my prayers every night and at church every Sunday.Bless all of you, and remember someday you will join that angel who awaits you. Till that time try and enjoy life for it is what God and Becky would both want. Close

In our hearts forever..  / Olivia Tattory (Fellow Rugger & Friend )
I often think about Becky and the impact she's had on my life. With an occasional appearance in my dreams, I thank God for reminding me that Becky is watching over me.  Becky had left her Army Rugby hat in my car on the way to East Stroudsburg, after playing phone tag for a couple of months I gave up trying to give it back, I liked it anyway. I feel as though I was meant to keep it, and I thank Becky for leaving it with me. I love the memories I had with Becky, and just want to let Murph and Mrs. Marseglia how truly great Becky really was. And once again, I AM SO SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS.
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The New Tattoo  / Randi Jefferys (Family Friend )
Diane, I would just like to say that the tattoo you recently got on your ankle is so precious. i think it is very special that you have your girls initials, but what makes it so much more special, is Becky's handwriting. I hope that this helps ease some of the pain, and takes you another step towards trying to ease the pain of your unbearable loss. I want to let you know that i still think about you and your girls everyday, and don't forget that if either you or Katie ever need anything, we are and will always be there for you, no matter what. Sending my love--Randi Close

keeping you in mind in the UK  / Jojo
Becky, I lit a candle for you in St Albans Cathedral, here in England.  It was such a beautiful cathedral, it was more than appropriate for you. Close

after a long trip  / Dan (Friend and CAP )
 Hey, i just got back from Hawa'ii on wed and im still sufering from jet lag. I remember when i first booked the trip in jan and then down in FL we were talking about it. well just to let you know i couldn't sleep the whole way to or from hawa'ii, but i did do alot of thinking espically about you and CAP. While i was writing stuff down you came to my mind and i was thinking that the meetings on Tuesday nights still aren't the same, im just waiting for you to come in wearing half a uniform and having your hair down and all of your jewerly on and not wearing boots but high heals. lol. i remember while i was at classes on tues nights during the 05 spring semester i was trying to find a replacement for me after the summer and all i wanted to do want get you to be CC. i wish you were still here espically because you made CAP that much better, it will never be the same without you Becky.
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You are Beautiful Becky!  / Connie Lamb (Mom's Friend )
Becky, you are so beautiful.  I know you and my Brittney are buddies now and are taking care of each other.  Please remember, how much we love you and miss you and we will think about you, and talk about you, and be proud to be your mother's forever.  Keep the signs coming!

Sending you the tightest hugs!

Love,
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Thinking of you!!  / Lisa Bohlin (POS mom )
Diane, Your Becky is a beautiful girl!! I just want you to know that you have helped me with all this too, just in the last few hours!! (7/20/05)
Know that Becky is proud of you for honoring her memory in this beautiful web site!!
Thanks for sharing her with me!!
Please visit my Nate at http://natesmemory.tripod.com/love4nate/
My favorite quote is this: "We have discovered that the death of someone we love is not the greatest loss.........The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we go on living" 
Take care my friend!!
                                   Lisa-mom of Nate
                                   2/15/83-4/13/04
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dreams... / Shaunna Melnick (good friend )
becky...
          i had a dream about you last night. we were at like a park and it was a talent show. and patty and eve and everyone were dancing and performing and all the sudden you jumped out of nowhere and started dancing and singing with them. and it was after you passed away and everyone was wondering wat was going on. and then you told everyone that you faked your death because you just needed to take a vacation and get some time away. and you were back into my life. i never remembered being so happy. and then i woke up and realized that you were still gone and i cried. i miss you so much my darling. i want you here with me again. its so hard to be so sad but then so happy. because everytime i think about you i smile. i keep fighting and pushing everyday because of you becky. because i know thats what you would be telling me to do everyday. thanks for continuing to look over me, my angel. i love you more than words can express

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Summer School is here  / Kara (Friend)
Becky, Getting ready for Hawk is hard. I'm in Alpha this year. It's not going to be easy knowing that I'm doing the same thing that you did just one year ago. I know you'll be with us for the whole school. You really don't get a choice do you? I love you so much. I miss you like crazy. Watch over us on the mountain this week and take care of Jody in England. Close

Miss You  / Terry (Friend)
Becky,
I am getting ready for Hawk Mountain Summer School. It won't be the same this year without you. I know you'll be up there with us though. I miss you so much.


Love,
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i love you becky  / Shaunna (good friend )
i love you so much becky. i found a video of you n patty the other day. it was so great to see your smile again and hear your voice. Close

Thinking / Mimi Morrow (Friend)
I've been....out of touch both mentally and physically for the past month, just kind of holding onto things by my fingertips and trying to get through time. I haven't checked this site for a while. I am so happy to see my daughter's continued comments here, holding up for you when I couldn't. You and your family have come to mean so much to me and mine. Randi's right - the comments may slow down, but Becky...and you..and Katey...will never be far from our hearts and our thoughts. Close

Diane and katy  / Staci Speece (castmate)

i hope that you are ok. i know that what has happened this past year made everyone think of life a little better!

i want you to know that you are the strongest two people i know! i dont think i would ever be able to go through what you have gone through!

katey: even though you are going off to the high school, i'm still here for you! if you ever need to talk just email me
singing_sweetie10@hotmail.com

diane: if you ever need anything you let me know! you can email me to and i will give you my phone number.

becky was more than amazing! i dont even know how to describe how awesome she was to me. thank you becky! i love you and miss you and i always think about you! its so hard not too!

love
staci*
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Warmest wishes / Pam Puckett (none)
My condolences to this family.  I lost my son a few months ago.  I know  my grief is similar -- the broken spirit --inability to focus --.  We just take one day at a time.  I have learned to not listen to a well meaning friend that tells you how to grieve.  It is different for all of us --no right or wrong in my opinion.  We will not return to our "normal " life  -- now we have a "new normal".My warmest regards and hope that soon the memories of Becky will be happier ones.
Sincerely,
Pam Puckett
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Last Night / Randi Jefferys (Family Friend)
Last night, I came in and saw Diane on TV talking about teen suicide on CN8. I wanted to take a minute and tell her that I only caught about 5 minutes of it (although of course we taped it), but those 5 minutes were just... gut wrenching is the closest word I can think of. The strength and courage it must have taken to go up there and speak about something that is so hard to even think about let alone speak about, it moved me. And I just wanted to let you know I think you've done a great thing sharing your pain and sorrow with people in hopes that they will never have to go through it themselves, and to make people aware of how easy somehting like that can happen to them. I thought is was very special that they dedicated the show to Becky and showed pictures of her. The messages on this site might dwindle a little bit, but Becky and her family will be in everyones heart forever, every day and every night. Close

Thinking Of You... / Terry (Friend)
Becky,
Please watch over Kara and Gabby this weekend. I know you'll be there for them during the survival hike. They miss you alot. I speak with them often and you are never out of their thoughts or prayers. I miss you so much. I remember after the Super Bowl. You came in my room to get a water. You kissed me goodnight. I cherish that moment forever.


Love You,
Terry Close

I'll lend you, for a little time......... / Anon (A Friend........)

To Diane & Mark

I'll lend you, for a little time
a child of Mine, He said.
For you to love her while she lives
and mourn for when she's dead.

It may be fifteen or sixteen years,
or twenty-two or three,
But will you, till I call her back,
take care of her for Me?

She'll bring her charms to gladden you
and should her stay be brief,
You'll have her lovely memories
as solace for your grief.

I cannot promise she will stay,
since all from earth return,
But there are lessons taught down there
I want this child to learn.

I've looked the wide world over
in search for teachers true,
And from the throngs that crowd life's lanes,
I have selected you, Diane and Mark.

Now will you give her all your love,
Nor think the labor vain,
Nor hate me, when I come to call
To take her back again?

I fancied that I heard them say,
"Dear Lord, your will be done!"
For all the joys this child shall bring
The risk of grief we'll run.

We'll shelter her with tenderness,
we'll love her while we may,
And for the happiness we've known,
forever grateful stay.

But should the angels call for her,
much sooner than we've planned.
We'll brave the bitter grief that comes,
and try to understand.

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Memorial Day / Mimi Morrow (friend)

It's Memorial Day Weekend, and as a member of a family who has honored this day for many, many years, we've always gone to the cemetery to honor those who have been members of the Services who have gone before us. My father, a WWII veteran, passed away last Sunday and was buried with a military honor guard on Friday. He was laid to rest with my mother, also a WWII veteran, who had passed 11 years ago. Although they're not at the same place Becky is, my thoughts were with her Friday when we were honoring my dad, thinking of how holidays will be so different now. It doesn't matter how long ago it was, or how much time will pass, time has stopped for them - and part of us has stopped as well. It's Memorial Day Weekend and we honor those who have passed before us. God bless her and keep her safe.

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beck... / Shaunna (Good friend)

becky...my dearest. i miss you so much. think about you everyday. I found a picture of us in summerstock. haha we were so young. i think it was bye bye birdie cause we were in fifties outfits. what good times with mr. nelson. lol all i remember  him saying over and over again, " becky and patty please stop talking" haha always you two talking. haha. god i miss you. thanks for watching over me everyday gurlie. i feel you with me. i love you sooo much.

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